Ah yes, another one of those days. I was doing great until about an hour and a half ago. I was just rummaging through my room when I came across a CD with my dad's handwriting on it. It was labeled "New New Driving Music" and I had a sudden rush of excitement because if it was my dad's driving music, there was probably that Rory Gallagher song on there. I didn't know if I wanted to listen to it because I didn't know what kind of effect it would have on me. Would it depress me or deepen my link with my dad? I put the CD in my laptop and it turns out that there was nothing on it. Before, I felt sad and crushed, like a little bit of paper. Now I just feel sort of empty. I thought I had discovered some sort of message from him from the beyond, like he was trying to help me find the song I was looking for or like he was trying to comfort me because he knows I'm very sad lately.
No bad without good, though. It is true that I have moments of deep sadness, but never of despair, and always counteracted by large doses of great happiness and joy. I have the most excellent friends who love me, I'm 100% healthy, and I have my entire life ahead of me, one that I don't doubt will be colorful and adventurous and amazing, like it already has been. I'm very happy with my life and it can only get better with each day.
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